Tuesday, January 25, 2005

My last post didn't really make a whole lot of sense. Probably because I wasn't able to get all I was thinking about into words.

This last week has been really weird for me. There is a lot of stuff going on with my family, much of it to do with the divorce, and also something completely unrelated to the divorce.

My mom is having major problems at work right now. I can't really disclose any details, but it stems from an incident a few months ago with one of the kids she works with. She is the campus director of a group home for troubled teenagers. She is a social worker and therapist and provides treatement to those kids. She again, has had to hire a lawyer. Her professional reputation and her career are on the line. She currently is restricted in which of her normal duties she can perform at work. The thing that really bothers me is that it wasn't her fault. She's the boss so she is the one that ends up getting blamed for incidents like this one. They had to find someone to blame and they decided on my mom. Not only is this all emotionally stressful for her and the rest of my family, but it is financially taking a toll on us. We don't have the money to hire a lawyer, especially if she loses her job. She is now unable to do all the stuff she planned to do on the house so at some point she can sell it. It is all really bad timing.

The other issue is my parents divorce. I learned many of the details behind it tonight. I had pretty much guessed most of them, because I was there the whole time. What I learned was more than I was expecting. I knew what my dad had done, but I just didn't know the extent of it or how it all started. It was kind of disturbing and made me rather angry and disappointed with him. This has been really hard on my sister. She is a lot more emotional and sensitive to everything than I am, and it's affecting her experiences here at college. She has been very depressed and confused since before she started school.

At least I am caught up in all my studying right now. Well... all except for the 3 biostats problems I have due tomorrow. I should get those done so I can read Iliad and drink tea in my warm, cozy bed.


Amanda said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through this right now. Anything we can do to distract you for a while... I was talking with Todd and Kristen after practice, trying to come up with something new to do this weekend. Kristen suggested playing poker. I'm very for it. We can wear sunglasses and hats and have witty banter.

Chelsea said...

I can't say I have played a whole lot of poker, but I am willing to try. I do watch it on TV a lot. I would love the distraction. I keep losing my sunglasses though. I am not sure if I will know where they are by the weekend. I can bring cookies!